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[Nov. 18th, 2005|06:03 pm] |
[I AM NOT YET MAKING THIS JOURNAL FRIENDS ONLY, AS I TRULY DON'T SEE THE NECESSITY OF IT
I would however like to point out once more that I am NOT AMANDA MARSHALL. I DO NOT CLAIM TO BE HER, HAVE ANY AFFILIATION WITH HER OR TO KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT HER.
I'm simply a fan having some fun and I'm sorry if that offends anyone
For questions or codes, you can email me:
tuesdays_gypsy@hotmail.com ] |
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[Jul. 26th, 2004|12:55 pm] |
[Anyone not expecting this?
The game has changed alot in the last two years and I don't think it's the place for me anymore.
okay, honestly i've lost my internet again and won't be around for at least another month.
This is me 'officially' resigning from the game. umm... again. I suppose if down the road no one takes over the role, i will come back (if i ever get a computer that is)
I kinda wanted to write on of those long goodbye posts that went through my history in the game and basically thanked anyone I ever played with one by one.
I really don't have time for that kidn of thing now though. so here...
Marc, Janet, Andy, Eric, Blucas, Alexei, Tim, Dani, Matt, JoDee (without you i wouldn't even be here!),
umm... my brain is broken and i really can't think of people. so... thank you.
bye] |
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[Jun. 12th, 2004|09:12 pm] |
I guess people can't tell when you're making a joke about something in a post.
The last post i made... yes, i was upset about the rumours, but Marc continues to reassure me that there's nothing i need to be worrying about.
And I'll believe him.
He's staying in LA right now to do some more promotion for the tour and the album. He said there really wouldn't be any point in me being there so i'm back home in Toronto for now.
Andy... i really need to talk to you whenever we run into each other again. |
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[Jun. 7th, 2004|05:29 am] |
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Well, looks like my husband got married. Jesus. |
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[May. 12th, 2004|05:38 am] |
This is the LAST day.
When I get home tonight, I'm cleaning out the list and so far... there's like 11 people that are staying.
So, if you would like to remain on my friends list PLEASE respond to this. I am not assuming ANYBODY so if your name isn't in the comments, you're off. |
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[May. 4th, 2004|08:15 pm] |
Okay, so I'm gonna try and make sure I have this all figured out.
-My mother dropped off my daughter this afternoon, because I was going absolutely crazy knowing that she's spent more time with our parents than with us since she was born.
-Picked up Blu and Chris from the airport this evening. They'll be here for-- uh, a week? I think. And they've already disappeared
-Lunch with Janet tomorrow, finally. By the way boys, we're leaving Jenna and Lucas with you for a couple of hours.
-Andy and David will be here tomorrow morning as well. That was unexpected, but certainly not unwanted!
-Eric should be in town sometime next week, although I'm not sure exactly when.
It should all come together... and why do i feel like i'm forgetting something?
( The person that this is for will know it's for them. I told you not to make me use my own lyrics to prove a point!! ) |
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[May. 4th, 2004|09:16 am] |
It started off as a random drive by hugging...
And by the end of it, I had re-established a friendship that I was sure was lost forever. Despite the fact that we had actually had a visit not long ago, it wasn't like it was before. The talks and the hugs were both strained when we got together, and I don't know about him, but I left his house thinking that things would never be the same.
But we talked alot last night. Alot. And I think we are on the right path finally. And it feels good.
It feels really good that we might be able to get it back, because despite what I've said, I miss his friendship and his compassion and the way he's always been there for me.
It's nice to have him back.
EDIT: Anyone wanna sign a petition to get ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.1) miss_janet back?
EDIT X2: while you're signing the petition, head over here |
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[May. 2nd, 2004|08:20 pm] |
I'm taking a page right from Blu's book.
I've done ALOT of cleaning of my friend's page in the last year or so.
But there's still lots to do.
So, if you would like to remain on my friend's list, and would like to continue to read my entries, please comment here. If you've been removed from my friends list and would like back on, please point it out to me, because the only reason I would have removed you would be if i felt you had lost interest.
And yes, this also means that the majority of my journal will be friends only from this point on.
You can also find me on AIM: MostlyManda |
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[May. 2nd, 2004|08:23 am] |
I went to the movies last night while Marc was doing some work in the studio.
I didn't get to go to the premier with him last week 'cause I had some stuff to take care of for the kids before we left for Ireland... Not that I was missed apparently. Which, by the way, I got to find out about in pictures.. as usual. Whatever, there was a beautiful brunette on his arm... why would I be upset about that. ....it was the look I got afterwards that truly upset me.
..I digress...
I went to see my husband's movie. For those of you who have yet to see it, ignore the reviews you've read and go.
I sat in the back. Not because I was afraid of being recognised.. 'cause that's not an issue when I'm here. But i wanted to be able to enjoy it without being interrupted, or having my reactions judged.
I watched the entire thing with wide eyes, and my jaw nearly on the floor. Of course I knew that my husband was passionate and talented, but I had no idea the depth of it. His passion came across on the screen like nothing I'd ever seen before and as always, i couldn't keep my eyes off of him. The entire movine was like that though. It grabbed my attention and i couldn't think of anything else.
( Major spoilage ahead. Only read only if you've seen it or if you don't care about knowing the plot ahead of time ) |
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[Apr. 27th, 2004|04:52 pm] |
I shouldn't have been so surprised when I heard about it. I knew about it all along, but I foolishly believed what my husband said to me. I never once thought that I would regret thta decision. But I do.
And I hate that.
More than that... I hate him for what he's done to us, and that he lied about it. He blatantly lied and barely showed remorse until I questioned him on it again.
And my fears were true.
You know, it's funny though. All this time I thought that I would be the one to do this. |
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[Apr. 23rd, 2004|06:34 pm] |
I finally figured out why Marc stopped updating.
I guess if I was destroying my marriage, I wouldn't want to update about it either. |
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[Apr. 14th, 2004|09:25 am] |
Marc and I are back in New York now, with Jenna.
I love being in New York. It's by far my favourite home.
It's not Miami
I haven't explained the depth of my disgust for Miami to Marc yet. I don't think he realises that I just don't want to go back there at all. I suppose one of these days we'll have to talk about it. But there's alot going on right now.. alot of other things we need to work on first.
I think the Jennifer issue is mostly behind us for now. We talked it through and I really think it was one of our best talks.
I didn't run
For the first time in my life.. when things got really bad, I stayed in the thick of it. Not that it was pretty. Ther was screaming and yelling and doubting on both our parts but we decided we could make it through it. And then we ran together. To get away from it all and spend some time just for us.
It worked I think.
Now in a couple of months he'll have to start rehearsal for his tour. This'll be the first big tour for either of us since we've been together and the hardest thing I've had to tell him was that I didn't want our daughter to live on the road. I don't want her to see a hotel room in a couple of years and think she's home. Marc disagrees with me of course, but I just couldn't stand her living like that.
So, we'll be in Toronto for the most part.. I'll be working on my album and we'll go and meet him on the road every chance we get.
And sometime in the next week, the two of us will be flying off to Ireland. |
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[Apr. 12th, 2004|06:54 pm] |
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh
I can't tell you how excited i am to see nardwuar_!!! |
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[Apr. 4th, 2004|08:27 pm] |
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Only at the Juno's would 'best pop album' be part of the 'untelevised' portion of the show. |
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[Apr. 1st, 2004|03:20 pm] |
So I had this horrible horrible dream last night. One of those all consuming type things where I wake up in a sweat and reach for the phone..
I was walking down the street.. all by myself, there wasn't even anyone else around. Then a car pulls up, stops beside me and the door opens. Eric's sitting in the driver's seat and motions for me to get in.
I do, of course, 'cause it's Eric and we drive off. Suddenly we're in the desert, eating ice cream and talking just like we used to. Laughing about the things that have happened and the things that we've been through since we met. And I said something, he got really quiet then turns his head towards me and says "What the fuck is that supposed to mean"
I blew up at him. I have no idea what was said or what we were fighting about, but we were really going at it. Screaming at each other and I was actually trying to hit him.
I think Eric just got tired of it... fed up, you know? 'Cause he finally just gave up. It was the worst ending to a dream that I've had in a really long time. Think... Thelma and Louise. Yep, that's right. He drove us off a cliff.
Well, I guess it shut us up at least...
Eric, I still can't believe you killed us! |
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[Mar. 31st, 2004|08:57 pm] |
I absolutely love checking my voicemail and hearing messages like this
and just for good measure:
songs4loveLorne (8:58:04 PM): *BOUCENES*
songs4loveLorne (8:58:08 PM): *blinks*
MostlyManda (8:58:13 PM): *blinks back*
songs4loveLorne (8:58:14 PM): Oh well. I like it.
MostlyManda (8:58:20 PM): how did you screw up the screw up? |
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[Mar. 31st, 2004|02:31 pm] |
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Hey look at that.... March 29th was my two year anniversary here. |
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[Mar. 31st, 2004|03:37 am] |
Hey Andy,
Just wanted to say thanks for 'molesting' my away message throughout the night... I love waking up to see messages from some one telling me they love me *laughs*
Or, wait... is it me you love? or the away message... that part was unclear... Hrmmm... now i wonder about you.
But yah, thanks, I LOVE AND MISS YOU TOO. |
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[Mar. 25th, 2004|09:18 pm] |
*makes a mental note*
October 2nd.
Don't you fucking forget. |
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[Mar. 23rd, 2004|07:14 am] |
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So he doesn't believe in airing the dirty laundry in public like this. If that were true, then we wouldn't be in this situation 'cause he wouldn't have been doing anything in public.
So I'm airing it. And if he gets angry at me... well fuck it, he doesn't have the right to be angry at me for anything right now.
He swears up and down that he didn't sleep with her. But they did share more than one kiss.. more than one intense kiss. And it didn't dawn on them to draw the line until things were getting all hot and heavy in the car. His hands were on her skin.. all over her body. "The regular things that go along with kissing". That's the explanation that I got.
But he remembers the curves of her body. He remembers how her back arches towards him when he touches her just right. He thinks about it, I can see it.
An last week when we were in LA? He told me he had a little bit of work to do, but that it was mostly just a trip to get us away for a bit... yah right. I know she was there, I knew it then but I never thought anything of it.
So, Jenna's at his mother's and we're on a plane. I couldn't run away again.. neither of us could let that happen, but there was no way I could stay in Miami. That city is just disgusting to me right now. So, as much as I truly want to be away from him right now.. I don't think that would help anything. I'm gonna have to be in Edmonton next weekend for the Junos anyway so we're on our way up there a little early.
It's somewhere where no one else is... no one else to deal with. Granted... by next neek it'll be crawling with Canada's musicians and entertainers, but for now it should be okay. Although I read that it's fucking cold. |
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[Mar. 21st, 2004|05:42 pm] |
I know that this whole thing is annoying and everyone's tired of me whining about it, but too bad.
There are more articles and pictures floating around now than i could possibly keep track of. Pictures of them laughing and smiling and having a jolly good time. They're old friends, that's great.. but I think it's gone too far.
The dates just aren't working out.
If there's nothing happening and nothing going on, why would he feel the need to lie to me. Tell me that he has to work, so he won't be home... then suddenly there's pictures of them together on those very nights.
maybe i'm being paranoid, but it all seems a little too odd... |
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[Mar. 15th, 2004|10:36 am] |
Andy? David?
Marc and I are in LA for a couple of days... you guys around? |
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[Feb. 19th, 2004|08:24 am] |
Apparently my husband has been very busy lately.
Not only did he and Dayanara get divorced (again), he fathered a baby with a young woman and him and Jennifer Lopez are a couple suddenly.
please. |
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[Feb. 17th, 2004|07:39 pm] |
Tomorrow around noon I'll be catching a plane and jetting across the country to see Andy, David and Marc (the stalker one, not the husband one).
I'm only staying for a couple of days, I'll be back on Saturday but if anybody needs me, that's where Jenna and I will be. |
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[Feb. 16th, 2004|05:01 pm] |
Anyone been watching the news lately? The buzz is all over Miami and i've seen a couple of snippets on ET and CJ about it lately.
DNA tests can't lie, right? Can't be tampered with? The probability is like 99.999%, or something like that.
He couldn't have done it anyway... right? I mean. We're married. We have our own...
2 months old... so he was born in December. December minus 9 months is March...or something like that.
What were we doing in March? Were we having problems?
Is anyone around?
The Junos are in Edmonton in April. I think I'll go, but I think I'll go alone. |
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[Feb. 9th, 2004|02:41 pm] |
I wish I could update about the things that have been going on, but after New York, Marc and I have agreed to try and keep at least some aspects of our lives private.
It is hard though, opening a magazine or turning on the TV and hearing rumours of your husband's divorce with his ex-wife. People walking up to me and asking me what's going on.
To be honest, I don't know where this all came from. Dayanara feeling left out of the spotlight? Making up a story to get her back in the media? Some one else trying to stir shit up?
I don't know, and maybe I never will. I've learned to let this kind of thing roll off my back and Marc and I don't ever talk about it in front of the kids.
Just remember, don't believe everything you see on TV.
And Marc, baby, I love you. You have to be one of the strongest men I've known in my life, second maybe only to my father.
And to the rest of you... I'm sorry if it seems that I've disappeared. I've finally been focusing on my family. |
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[Jan. 30th, 2004|02:52 am] |
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[Jan. 18th, 2004|02:45 pm] |
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[Jan. 7th, 2004|02:11 pm] |
So, it's been an interesting couple of weeks.
For the first time I was annoyed with fame. We know what to expect when we go to New York.. we knew what we were getting into when we went there for the holidays. But still.. We haven't been able to do one thing so far without a trail of people behind us. Our kids deserve more than that... more respect than that.
It's made me slightly bitter lately. I hate it, but it has. And I'm actually kind of ashamed of this. I'd like for everything and everyone to go away sometimes. I'm greatful for his fans, blah blah, without them we wouldn't have what we have, but sometimes it's too much.
I was looking forward to some quiet nights alone, and we haven't run into too many of those. Marc's mother has been incredible though. She can see how much it's bringing me down and she knows I just want to be with my husband so she was showing up all the time to take the kids from us. For a day, a weekend, whatever we needed. Don't get me wrong, I love my daughter and his kids, but sometimes (more lately than ever), I just don't feel like I can handle it all.
You know? |
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[Dec. 30th, 2003|02:34 pm] |
December 26th, 2002 I left David and his family in Montreal and flew to New York to be with the man I knew I loved. He didn'tk now I was coming and I didn't know how he'd react when he saw me standing there. I felt his heart melt, right along with mine when he opened the door and I knew we were going to be fine.
The next day we decided that we absolutely needed to be married as soon as we could. I called Janet that night, she got everything ready for us and we were married in London on December 29th 2002.
This past year has been absolutely thrilling. The ups and downs have been a little trying but the end results make everything worth it. You know... he still looks at me the same way as he did the first time we kissed. It's as if nothing's changed. Like I haven't left him hurt and confused more times than I can count. None of that matters now and when I look at him I can see that he truly has forgiven me for everything. For the first time in a year I genuinely believe that he forgave him the moment I asked him to.
He's loved me purely. He's never asked me to change. Hell.. he's never asked anything of me. I've never felt pressured to do anything in this relationship and I wouldn't change a thing about it.
I guess I've said that a few times.
It's still just as true as the first time I said it. You know what else? I never used to be this mushy before I met him.
I'm so amazed at his love. I fucking love him more than my life.
I think I could go on and on and on about how happy I am with him. And our family... God, our family is absolutely perfect.
I love you Marc. Thank you for changing my life. |
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[Dec. 30th, 2003|03:10 am] |
Yesterday was our one year anniversary... I promise I'll wake up and update about it!!!
Just wanted to say happy anniversary baby. |
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[Dec. 25th, 2003|03:15 am] |
Merry Christmas to you and your families, I wish you all the best in the new year.
We're kinda chilling in New York for a while... yeah right, as if there's anything peaceful about this place at christmas time.
It's fun though, and at least I've gotten to catch up to Andy a time or two.
On the 29th, Marc and I will have been married for a year, expect a nice big post. |
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[Dec. 11th, 2003|03:52 pm] |
I've been trying to keep up with my friends page, but that's proven to be quite difficult. So I've decided that if anything monumental happens to any of my friends, they'll call me to tell me. lol, it just makes things easier.
Marc and I have nearly been married for a year now. He keeps walking around making jokes about how he's tamed me in that time. He thinks he's funny but I had it planned all along ;)
I GET TO SEE ANDY SOOOON EEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
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[Dec. 2nd, 2003|06:05 pm] |
The last couple of days have been pretty hectic.
And that was honestly the most polit way I could have said that.
The decision to part ways with Sony Music Canada was not an easy one to make but it was made a couple of months ago. It's simply a career choice, there are no personal conflicts and I hope that the friends I've made at this label will stay with me for the rest of the ride.
I was apprehensive about doing this. Here we are, nearly ten years into my professional career, 4 albums under my belt and 2 gemini winning TV specials and I'm starting over? We're going to this new label fresh faced and with a blank slate, but I know it's gonna be better than ever.
It was Rob who convinced me that this would be the best for everybody.
Amanda, you have a great fan base, but it's never gonna grow if you aren't with a company who wants that for you
Rob Misener is the only person, other than family, who's been with me through it all. I can't count how many times I was pissed 'cause my ideas were being shot down. He'd calm me down and we'd work through whatever it was i wanted to do. We both have stacks of CDs that will probably never be released, but at least I had a chance to try them out.
The change will be good. We've convinced ourselves of this. The new label will respect us as artists and do what they can to promote us.
Just talking about it is getting me excited.
This has meant alot of late nights though. And alot of people at the house all the time. The band's been here, the old label's been here, I'm thinking of installing a revolving door on my house.
Marc's been incredible through it all. I know he knows exactly what I'm going, having done it himself a few months ago. But when it comes to the kids, he's been so patient. If he has things to do, he'll take them to my parents, otherwise he stays with them all day and let's me work.
I love my husband. I can't believe we've nearly been married for a year already.
Here's to another one, baby.
(And no.. that did not say "Here's to another baby" lol)
Can I squeal now about going for lunch with Paul earlier today? Defenitly the highlight of my day! Paul, we have to do that more often. |
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[Nov. 29th, 2003|02:47 pm] |
Sorry I really haven't been around lately guys. With the release and the press... it's been crazy.
And it's official now, so I can finally talk about. "Intermission" will be my final release with Sony. |
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[Nov. 26th, 2003|09:06 am] |
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So. *taps my foot* What did everyone do yesterday? |
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[Nov. 21st, 2003|08:27 am] |
Real update to come soon, I promise... for now...
Check this out.u |
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[Nov. 19th, 2003|01:50 pm] |
I tried to post this, and it disappeared, so let's try again, shall we?
In Celebration of the new album, I'm participating in an online chat on Tuesday, November 25th at 7:00pm EST at http://www.sympatico.ca
and if you'd like to hear a snippet of the new single "Until we fall in" please go here and click on the "Intermission" album cover at the top of the page. |
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[Nov. 14th, 2003|10:20 am] |
In my daughter's eyes, I am a hero
I am strong and wise, and I know no fear
The last person to look at me like that was Marc. It's such a pure perception, and so refreshing to see. Jenna doesn't know anything that happened in the last 31 years... her world starts now. And mommy... mommy can do anything.
But the truth is plain to see, she was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be, In my daughter's eyes
Who I was before Jenna doesn't matter anymore. I mentioned that her world is starting now... but so is mine. My family is my life. My husband and my daughter are what matter and nothing can change that. She's made me realise what my priorities are.
In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me
Gives me strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes
Has anyone guess that I really like this song? The album was released shortly before Jenna was born and when I heard this song I just absolutely froze. The first thing I noticed about my daughter was her eyes. They're bluer than mine and bigger than Marc's. Her eyes can capture you from acros the room and you can't help but fall in love with her.
And when she wraps her hand around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realise what life is all about
It's hangin on when your heart has had enough
It's gicing more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daughter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see
How happy she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes |
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[Nov. 4th, 2003|03:33 pm] |
oh...Look!
I do have a journal... I knew there was one of these things kicking around here.
Marc and I just celebrated our 10 month anniversary a few days ago.
I'm exhausted, I think I'll update later. |
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[Oct. 28th, 2003|09:06 am] |
Well, Parker unfriended me... so i guess i'll do the same. I suppose we really didn't chat alot anyway.
So now, I'm finding my loyalties being tested. One the one hand, I have a person who I worship, despite everything. I admire him and everything he's been through, but I don't always agree with the decisions he makes. And now, although, I'll always be there for him if he ever needs me, and I'm sure that works both ways... He doesn't seem to have time for me. No talks, no phone calls. I can completely understand that he's busy.. he has alot on his mind and all that. I'm not holding anything against him, I'm just trying to make a decision.
On the other hand. There's a person who calls me nearly everyday, just to make sure I'm okay. And I'm pretty sure that if it came to it, and I really did need something, he'd work out a way to be there. I was in complete awe of him when we met, and was far too shy to really approach him. It took us several months to actually get to know each other, and when we did, we were nearly inseperable. And since then, we help each other through absolutely everything. And aside from my husband, he's the only one who can make me smile when all i want to do is scream.
Now, parts of my life are divided. I know no one's forcing me to, but I almost feel as thought I'm supposed to make a choice. They've both been a major part of my life up to this point. I know it almost seems like I'm being cryptic, but I have a feeling everyone knows who I'm talking about anyway. |
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[Oct. 24th, 2003|04:05 pm] |
I really don't.
I made a post this morning, and it's not showing up on any friends pages. Does this make sense to anyone?
Ah well. |
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[Oct. 24th, 2003|08:19 am] |
I woke up this morning in my own bed for the first time since Jenna was born. I'd forgotten what it felt like to wake up and feel my husband's arms wrapped around me.
This morning was wonderful, but last night was incredible. The passion, the lust. Everything that I've been longing for the last 5 months was suddenly mine. It felt like the first time again. We took our time.. exploring every inch of each other's bodies as if we hadn't been there in years. Everything was new again, yet still familiar.
Marc, you made me feel like a woman again. Thank you for reminding me of exactly what I was missing. And jenna and I will absolutely be joining you in New York, we'll leave on Sunday. |
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[Oct. 23rd, 2003|07:06 pm] |
So, it's official now. I'm not coming out with a new record so to speak... but I am releasing something next month.
'Intermission - The Singles Collection' is coming out on November 25th. And no... I'm not old enough for a "Greatest Hits" release, it's simply the radio hits... PLUS TWO BRAND NEW SONGS.
So please please.... go pick it up. You won't be sorry. |
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[Oct. 21st, 2003|12:17 pm] |
There's a big, overstuffed armchair in the nursery. I made sure we had one, no matter what house we were in. It's pretty much become my bed now. I sleep there through the night and I usually find myself standing at her cribside when the sun comes up... that is, if she isn't already in my arms by then.
Once already I've fallen asleep with her cuddled up on my chest. And the only reason I realised that we'd done that was because Marc came in to put her to bed... then I still went back to sleep in the chair.
I'm starting to worry about Marc, though. He's spent the weekend fussing over Jenna, trying to be sure I was safe, making sure all the guests were happy plus... talking with Tommy on the phone working on... well, something. I just realised that I don't even know what my husband's working on! I'm sure it's brilliant though.
Like Marc mentioned in his post, he's obligated himself to appear in New York on... umm, I think it's the 28th or so. We're debating now whether Jenna and I should join him there, we could drive down together and his mother and his kids would come back up with us when we come home. See, we don't want to be apart while he's there, but I'm not sure if Jenna should be going on a trip like that yet.
I guess we'll see. |
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[Oct. 17th, 2003|12:17 pm] |
In my daughter's eyes
I am a hero
As soon as she was out, lungs clear and wailing, I'd forgotten everything. Everything I'd done to get there was out of my head. I couldn't think of anything but the absolutely beautiful baby that they were rushing away from me.
All I wanted to do was sleep, but I couldn't take my eyes off of her. I was still holding Marc's hand just as tight and not even noticing it. When they took her out of the room, that was when I finally collapsed against the bed. The room was spinning, but I wasn't paying attention to it anyway. I could feel Marc sitting on the bed, but I couldn't help it. I fell asleep. I didn't wake up for... God, must have been 3 hours. When I woke up, Andy was on his way, Eric left me a voicemail saying he'd be on his way tomorrow and Paul was on the phone, freaking out trying to get his family to the hospital.
I wanna thank everybody for the incredible outpour of love and all the support I've been getting (including ozzyosbourne... which almost floored me). I can't clear my voicemail fast enough, it keeps filling up.
And andy_hallett.. I'm thinking about you today. Remember what I said. If you need some support, I'm just a phone call away and I love you.
Thank you again, Marc. |
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[Oct. 15th, 2003|05:16 pm] |
JENNA ISABEL MUNIZ
OCTOBER 15TH, 2003 10:03 AM EST
5 POUNDS 4 OUNCES
TORONTO, ONTARIO
currently hairless but she has the most amazing blue eyes you can imagine. |
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